Last January, I dedicated myself to Lö
yly, which is the Finnish word for "spirit" but also the word for the steam produced in the sauna. Well, maybe dedicated isn't the right word, but I did invite this concept to make a home in my heart.
At the fall solstice, my coven often asks people what element they need to work with. I decided to work with fire, as I'm always cold. And I decided I would try and work with this element for the next half year or so.
Tonight, I was reading the book "Wyrdwalkers
" and was reading up on the suggested skills to know regarding the elements. When I came to fire, #3 was "to raise (or lower) your body temperature at will." I thought Yeah, right, and how the hell am I supposed to learn how to do that?
#8 Purification by heat. "Learn how to do heat ordeals as purification, such as the sauna or stofa if it's physically possible for you. This is optional...and it's good if you're having trouble with #3 above."
Yet I find myself hesitating on the edge of the cliff. I know that I need to work more deeply with fire. I find myself saying "I don't have a sauna, I should wait to work on this until I have a sauna." But I know this is a poor excuse. I don't know why, but I find myself withdrawing from the task I've set. I don't know if this is pure laziness. It could also be that I worry that focusing on my spiritual work will disrupt my routine with my husband and family. Maybe there is something else I need to do first.
On the other hand, I don't want to wait for the cosmic clue by four either.